The night before she told me that she never dreamed that this would happen.
She’s all jittery and her stomach started acting up a few minutes before. She was crying as she went down the car. She cried even more when she entered the hall. All throughout, I cried with her. The overwhelming joy she felt, I felt some of it too. I have shallow tears but I can stop myself most of the time. On that day, I let it go. I was too happy for her.
We’ve been friends since college. I witnessed her heartaches, her search for the right one. She almost gave up but he came. She’s turning forty this year, he is in his fifties. This is the first and hopefully, the last marriage for both of them.
It was a good day, everyone was happy. It was a day of love, a day of joy.
It is just the beginning. ♥
2018 hit me with a lot of surprises. Even now on its 46th day I am still dizzy with all the changes I have to adjust to. It is scary yet exciting, sad yet liberating. Tomorrow will be the Chinese New Year and I would like to at least write one post to welcome the year of the dog. Some things I did on the first few days of this year are:
- I cut my hair off, it’s almost reaching my butt and it’s getting harder to comb and shampoo it. Now I feel lighter than ever.
- I met up with old friends. High school friends and we had a blast.
- One of my good friends had a mild stroke. She just celebrated her 40th birthday a few days prior. It was a warning to us, a sort of wake up call to be more conscious with our lifestyle and eating habits.
- My best friend is finally getting married and I am going to their province. It’s my first time to travel alone.
- I am about to face a crossroad in my life. I can see it from afar and I am mentally and emotionally preparing myself for the day I will make my final choice. It’s stressful. Right now it’s a battle between my heart and my head.
I am listening to those yearly forecasts and I heard somewhere that this is a good year to meet my soulmate. I’ve been hearing that for years now but I still want to believe it. LOL.
Anyway, Gong Xi Fa Cai!
May we all have a prosperous and joyous doggie year ahead. =)
It’s first day back to the real world!
So far, nothing special or spectacular happened. It was just another day at work. Thankfully, I am not feeling lazy and I feel like I made the most of my break. I just hope I’ll have enough energy for the whole day and I won’t be feeling sleepy later because I did not get enough shut-eye last night.
The sleepiness usually comes after lunch. Sometimes I feel like I am a swine, I feel sleepy after eating. Since it’s just the middle of the day and I still have work to do, here are some things I do to keep myself awake.
- Coffee – caffeine used to jolt me up but I noticed that my tolerance gets a little higher each time
- Wash face- if only I could take a bath, I would. The splash of cold water is enough to keep me on my toes for a few hours.
- Exercise – these stairs and the corridor are good for a slow jog which keeps my blood pumping.
- Spicy food – i love them =) Once the spiciness touches my tongue, it would be hard to go dozing.
- Power nap – 15 – 30 minutes are my ideal. I have this secret spot in our library. After I have my nap, I feel so refreshed like I had a complete eight hour sleep.
Sometimes one of them is enough, there are times I use a combination or two or three methods and I know it’s really bad if I had to do all of them. As much as possible, I don’t want to do any because the best way to ward off sleepiness is have enough sleep the night before.
I’ve been wanting to try my hand at baking. Unfortunately, I don’t have an oven. I have tried making brownies in the toaster oven using the instant mix from the store but I really would love to make something out of scratch.
I came across this recipe at : https://www.chieffamilyofficer.com/2012/05/toaster-oven-brownies/
Since I have all the ingredients, I gave it a try.
It was another success. (Clap! Clap! Clap!)
Well not really that good to look at but they taste great. =)
My ten-day break is almost over. I am happy that I made the most out of the brief break. I watched a few movies and caught up with a few TV series. I started writing again and I enrolled in a brief online course. It was fruitful so to speak.
Before I go back to the real world, I have to prepare my bag. I always try to bring as few things as possible to work. However, I find it hard to leave some essential stuff at home. Here’s what I always carry around in my bag.
- My pencil case – this is like Peter Pan’s bag of pixie dust for me. I can’t survive a day at work without my writing tools and I am not comfortable with just one type or one color.
2. Make-up purse – powder, eyebrow pencil, lipstick, and cologne. Ever since this kilay craze started, I just can’t get out of the house without doing my eyebrows.
3. USB’s – Many important stuff are saved in them and in my line of work, I can’t afford to lose an important document.
4. Planner – smart phones are handy but I still feel much safer writing my goals down.
5. Umbrella, towel, and fan – I live in a tropical country and I sweat a lot even if I am not moving when the sun is scorching hot and when it suddenly rains, an umbrella is sometimes not enough to keep me dry. (as of writing I can’t find my umbrella and I’m beginning to be pissed off ;<)
6. ID’s and some coins – even if I leave my wallet, I have enough spare change to pay for public transportation.
7. cellphone – who can live without phones these days?
So there they are. I just have to carry them and I’m good for Monday. =)
I am old enough to know that making dreams come true is not easy. It entails a lot of sacrifices, risks, failures, and heartaches. Successful people often tell others that you really have to shed a lot of blood, sweat, and tears to get to where they are.
I have given up on my dreams. I just set small, realistic goals and achieved them little by little. I have learned the rhythm and the groove and I am comfortably doing what I know and learned.
However, not too long ago, I heard this popular religious advocate say that we should never give up on our dreams. Our dreams were put in our hearts by God for a reason which is why we must pursue it.
So here I am staring at that distant star again. Perhaps if I keep my eye on it, I would be able to reach it just like how others have reached their own stars.
It’s All Saints’ Day and it has been a tradition of our family to visit our dearly departed on the first day of November. We light up candles and offer flowers and prayers with the hope that they are happy and peaceful with our Creator. It is our way of showing that we haven’t forgotten, although we have moved on, that they have played important roles in our lives.
While it is true that we could have given those flowers while they were still alive, I believe that giving them flowers on this day bears equal weight. This is the only thing we can do for them now that they are not with us – go on living and look back even for just one day every year.