It’s the last day of the year.
Before I say my final goodbye to 2023, I would like to look back on some moments. I lost two of my favorite uncles, I was betrayed twice, one of my best friends started undergoing dialysis, and my place of work announced its last year of operation. It’s not nice but it was not all too bad. I was promoted, attended our 28th high school reunion, and gained new friends. My favorite babies graduated and they are still in touch.
I want to say that it was okay but really, it’s not. I learned a lot and I can confidently say that I have improved in a lot of ways yet, I’m not happy. Perhaps it’s due to the gravity of the negatives. The good things were not enough to outweigh the difficult parts. I’m still grieving my loss and I’m still reeling from being betrayed by people I genuinely liked. I want this pain to be over and I want to repair my self-esteem but I know it takes time.
As I said last year, I would not let fate force me, I will follow my path voluntarily and purposively. I need to cut ties with people and leave my comfort zone to be in the right place. Honestly, I’m scared. Right now, I’m more scared than excited. I want to change this frame of mind but I am so afraid I feel frozen. I guess I just have to wing it.
Bye, 2023. Please leave something nice, even if it’s the last minute, that will make us remember you fondly.